Wednesday, September 8, 2010

A life in ribbons...


   Tonight as she lay sleeping I sorted through my daughter's hair ribbons.She starts school tomorrow. There were a lot of ribbons and I was looking for just the right one for her first day. One of them was mine from when I was small. I held it and remembered my mother teaching my how to roll it up and stick a straight pin in it to hold it in place. I would be so careful when trying to pick one out of my own basket but somehow always managed to prick a finger. My method now is far more crude. Then I came across the small bow that had been her first; the one the nurse had stuck on her head with KY Jelly when she was only a few hours old! Gross! I'm sorry but you should not encounter KY Jelly until you are much older!
   Slowly, as I looked at all those ribbons lying there on the floor, her life began to unfurl; a pink satin ribbon I'd bought to match an Easter dress, stripped grosgrain from a mermaid birthday costume, rich brown ones that had been lovingly tied onto birthday gifts from dear friends (you just have to love a real ribbon on a gift!), remnants of bows we had attached to friend's baby shower invites and some thin champagne colored stuff from bouquets... as they curled around me I realized I was seeing my daughter's life in ribbons. And what a beautiful life it has been.
  Tomorrow we will send her off to begin a new loop in that life. I wonder what colors and textures it will hold. Will this new experience be wound tightly around her? Will it be wide and flowing? I can only hope that we will all look back on  with as much fondness as that which has already passed. And yes, I did choose RED ribbons for tomorrow! "When in doubt, wear red!" (Bill Blass)

6 comments:

neweyes2 said...

great post nancy! I hope Bea has a great time at school tomorrow! exciting!

Anonymous said...

nancy. sweet baby bea, she's not such a baby any longer. what a big day! please wish her luck and love from me to her. i wish i was there to see her when she gets home from school to hear her stories and see the change in her that happens within us all when we encounter new adventure on our own. ahhhh independence. you know what this means...she is one step closer to coming and visiting auntie erica in NY! I love you dearly and thank you for keeping me involved in her life. my best, e.

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful blog, Nancy. I hope Miss Bea's first day is wrapped in wonderfulness--red and every other color!

Scary Mommy said...

Oh, sweet Bea. I will always think of her as a sweet little fairy.

sitatmytable said...

Sweet Bea-chan. I will always remember how she and you were both there with me the week I crossed the threshold into motherhood. Bea seemed so big to me then, as I cradled my scrawny newborn-- and now my daughter is much bigger.

I love the way that our lives are entwined. I always think of you in that red dress you wore in high school, the red coat. Through all the snarls, snags, and loop-de-loops, I hope we're still sending each other packages tied with thick luscious satin fifty years from now.

love,
Anna

Anonymous said...

I always motivated by you, your thoughts and way of thinking, again, thanks for this nice post.

- Norman